Updated: Jun 10
I read Galatians 1
"They only heard the report: “The man who formerly persecuted us is now preaching the faith he once tried to destroy.” And they praised God because of me.
Galatians 1:23-24 NIV
I often reprimand myself. Self reflection can easily turn into self deprecation if I do not do so carefully.
I don't know if it's some kind of symptom of trauma. Where you just assume that you're deserving of pain.
It could be some weird conditioning, but it's my responsibility to fight this!
When first reading Galatians 1, I bounced back and forth in my head.
It starts in a reprimanding tone & right away I played the blame game in my head: yeah, right, of course.
But more than a reprimand, it's a reminder of grace awarded.
Singing God glory (for me) it's easy. I know what He's done. Over & over again.
Yet, when it matters most, instead of connecting back to the truth & remembering where my salvation has always come from.
I spend way too much time in my insecurities. Re-having conversations over & over again about things that God has already filed as victories.
What if, all of what makes me unworthy (in my eyes) is my glory song.
My experience is the renewal I get to share with the world.
God in Christ in me at work through the people He has placed in my life, to finally place me where my life can be a testament of His true giving, forgiving, elevating, loving, and nurturing nature.
I have a story to tell, but I didn't know this before.
Thank you God for reminding me that my experience is what makes me worthy!